I do hope... !!

Ok.. writing a new post after.. hmm… da Freedom.. yei.. we won da war against terrorism.. hik hik.. yea.. yea.. as Americans say.. bt hv we really won it ? or is it jst a phase ?

As raised by many, how did da terrorist errr.. I dnt lyk to call him a leader..bt lets say Prabhakaran died ? was he captured? Or was he killed in action ? let me dot down the theories which I v heard so far..

Some say that he was captured n was tourchered n then killed in his own battle field.. n some say that he was captured and brought to Colombo.. and let da president see him and then brought back to vanni and then killed.. ahem.. now tht is a big story isn’t it? Ok wtever the theories are im sure he was captured.. wel I belve that.. n was killed.. with all da rage in their mind.. im sure our guys have shot til the magazine is over.. cz I doubt that ny part of his brain is left.. Brains blow out ppl.. bottom line is that he is Dead n Gone..

As Sri Lankans we never celebrate a death of a person.. ever.. bt I rembt twice in my life time ppl did celebrate .. one is that da death of President Premadasa.. I was small back then.. (stil am.. hik hik.. ) … n rembr how ppl lit crackers and all … n da 2nd instance is da death of Prabha.. .. isn’t it grt tht we lived to see this day ?

Im guessing now only the real war starts.. I mean.. I hope the gvt hv future plans for the displaced in those areas.. if not yea.. true.. another reble wil be born.. so lets hope for the best shall we..

War secrets.. man I d lv to knw those.. bt I do hv a theory that wt u don’t kwn wont hurt u .. n I this case.. wt u don’t knw wont kill u.. cz knowing UNWANTED secrets means yea. U might ended up headless.. :P... come to think of it knowing them ALL isn’t gonna cheer us in life.. we wil be regretting.. feeling sad.. mad.. angry. …

I do dearly feel so grateful and honor our brave soldiers who fought for us.. they died for us.. the went handicapped cz of us.. they lost their families.. loved ones for us… wonder how a soldier can do all that and stil live as they do now..

I knw its not the picture we all see.. media .. DO lie.. tell tailing do happen.. and stil we belve wt we want to belve .. I hope we all believe in one thing and its peace for SL til this land exists.. !!

I hope the brave guys who lost their lives may find peace .. I hope the ones who got handicapped wil find the strength to survive.. I hope our ppl wil NEVER forgt wat and how SL was and how it will be in future… !!

Twilight the Series !!

Nw now.. this i copied frm the net .. :P n damn i wnt to read the books.. now.. ! since i knw da end i d lv to see it !!

Twilight
Main article: Twilight (novel)
Bella Swan moves from Phoenix, Arizona to live with her father in Forks, Washington to allow her mother to travel with her new husband, a minor league baseball player. After moving to Forks, Bella finds herself involuntarily drawn to a mysterious, handsome boy, Edward Cullen. She eventually learns that he is a member of a vampire family who drink animal blood rather than human. Edward and Bella fall in love, but James, a sadistic vampire from another coven, is drawn to drink Bella's blood. Edward and the other Cullens defend Bella. She escapes to Phoenix, Arizona, where she is tricked into confronting James, who tries to kill her. She is seriously wounded, but Edward rescues her and they return to Forks.

New Moon
Main article: New Moon (novel)
Edward and his family leave Forks because he believes he is endangering Bella's life. Bella falls into a deep depression, until she develops a strong friendship with werewolf Jacob Black. Jacob and the other wolves in his tribe must protect her from Victoria, a vampire seeking to avenge her mate James' death by killing Bella. A misunderstanding occurs, and Edward believes Bella is dead. Edward decides to commit suicide in Volterra, Italy, but he is stopped by Bella and Alice, Edward's sister. They meet with the Volturi, a powerful coven of vampires, and are released on the condition that Bella be turned into a vampire in the near future. Bella and Edward are reunited, and the Cullens return to Forks.

Eclipse
Main article: Eclipse (novel)
The vampire Victoria (James's mate from Twilight) has created an army of "newborn" vampires to battle the Cullen family and kill Bella. Meanwhile, Bella is forced to choose between her relationship with Edward and her friendship with Jacob. Edward's vampire family and Jacob's werewolf pack join forces to successfully destroy Victoria and her vampire army. In the end, Bella chooses Edward's love over Jacob's and agrees to marry him.

Breaking Dawn
Main article: Breaking Dawn
Bella and Edward are married, but their honeymoon is cut short when Bella discovers she is pregnant. Her pregnancy progresses rapidly, severely weakening her. She nearly dies giving birth to her and Edward's half-vampire-half-human daughter, Renesmee, but Edward injects Bella with his venom to save her life by turning her into a vampire. A vampire from another coven sees Renesmee and mistakes her for an "immortal child", whose existence violates vampire law, and informs the Volturi. The Cullens gather vampire witnesses who can verify that Renesmee is not an immortal child. After an intense confrontation, the Cullens and their witnesses convince the Volturi that the child poses no danger to vampires or their secret, and they are left in peace.

Y ?

Hmm.... wantd to write a good blog bt not inda mood.. y do ppl cm close to you n they start loving u n make u feel sad at da same time.. its a big question Y !! ?

One Sad night i was crying so much i cldnt evn breath .. so laid onda tile.. was stairing at the ceiling was thinking wt hv i ever done to ny1 to feel this pain.. i think i kinda acused the up above heavn for al the sadnes.. many times i wished i d die.. bt funny isnt it ..whn u wnt to die u dont n whn u wnt to live.. stil u dnt die..bt da ones who shld be living are dead..thats da nature i guz..

im happy bt im sad.. i smile bt i cry .. honestly .. i hv hurt so much i knw in a few days time.. i l not feel wt it means to be hurt.. almst everynyt i go to sleep crying..or hving a hurtful thought in my mind... iv been accused, hurt, been blasted into .. bt stil i live n love n wil be doing da same ..

why cnt ppl jst undrstnd me.. why do they alwys hv to prov that they knw abt me btr thn i knw myself ? why is it that they wnt to shw that they r da best n im da one at fault alwys ? Y Y Y Y ?? may be i dnt knw how they feel.. too obviz they dnt knw wt n how i feel ..

Cnt feel my love.. cnt feel i care.. cnt feel i do my best to change into a totaly difrnt persn.. y is it alwys their lv ..their care, their change is more Quality than mine ?? Hmm.... ??

No one sees me for wat i am.. is thr ny1 who loves me for WHO n WAT i am ? do they even knw the difrnt btwn that ? love isnt enf.. understnding too plays a big role.. isnt it ? i doubt that nyone can come out with 10 best things they knw abt me .. or whethr thy can tel me 10 best things thy'v done for me .. can u ? proove im wrong..

i wish i d nver felt lv,, nevr bn in lv,, it jst to hurtful..

why take my love for granted..my lve is nt a weaknes..its a feeling.. pure ? to me yes.. bt for u ? is it ??? yes or No ?? answer urself with my question of Y ?

" If i were a boy - i think i could understand

how it feels to love a girl - id swear id be a better man

id listen to her - cause i know how it hurts

when you loose the one u wanted - cause hes taken you for granted

and every thing you had got destoryd " (beyonce)

Ps. No i dnt need ya feed bk nor comments.. plz spare me that !

Totally Mine !

Today is hmm…now wts da date..yea 9th April 2009 and here I am on my bed typing

a blog at 10.30 pm.. and y is that..? hmm.. wel becz I promised some one special that

I would and I kinda don’t want to skip doing it… U c.. I stil hv NO clue of wt im gonna write abt today..cz I realy don’t have a good topic to write abt.. bt stil.. aftr thinking long and hard this is wat im gonna write tonyt..

Rembr I talkd abt love allda time..abt findng the guy of ur dreams..n abt settling for the 2nd best in life ? hmmm.. I hv a difrnt theory now.. .. smtimes whn ppl come into our lives we tend to change da way we think and behv… its amaizning wt lv can do to us..

Once I read in an email sent by my best gal Dj..where it said that wat a man can do to a woman.. so true.. a guy can make u feel like u r da best thing on earth n turn n make ur life miserable making u think that u were never born.. (in other words makes u feel lyk shit..!) n da reason for him to do that is becz we gals let them do that to us.. thts wt it said.... ok…its irrelevant to wat im gonna wirte abt bt stil i wrote that part becz its wt lv do to ppl…

In my case.. wel I alwys belvd that whn it comes to lv…I hv no luck in it.. true even now at times feels da same..cz there were n are n will be sleepless nights where I go to sleep in my tears.. whn u let some one get close to you, dear to ur heart.. it hapns.. bt tht doesn’t mean its da worst thing which can happen to a person..life is not so bad..n lv defa is not bad at all… love is suppose to be smthng truly amazing.. where u feel no hurt..no sorrow n definitely no tears.. so does that lve really exist ??

Yea.. im in lv… I alwys thought im in lv the othr times too ..its true wt they say.. whn u find true love u wil feel it.. n I feel my life ..myself with my guy.. its so amazing how he makes me feel at times.. one time I feel lyk im da luckiest gal on earth n the othr times.. hmm..well.. feels that wt hv I done to feel this pain.. I wld hv jst walkd away if someone make me feel sad .. cz I tend to stay away frm the ppl n things which makes me feel sad.. BUT.. whn that speicl someone is in ur life ..he makes you feel that its right to feel sad.. to cry.. to laugh ..to be happy … n you wake up every day as if nothing hapnd…

Moving on with life without him.. Mann.. I hv no idea.. n I hv NO intentions of doing da same.. yea.. I knw wt you all say.. “its Wasana.. she is a survivr.. she moves on.. no woris.. she cn make it thro..” of cz ppl I wil make it through..bt things wont be da same.. I do feel.. I do hurt..i feel sad n lonely.. its not that im made of clay.. without a heart and feeling.. its so hard to do such things.. whn you are left with NO choice in life.. yea.. I tend to take the easy way out..which at times IS not the best thing to do ..i knw I hv made sm mistakes in takin sm decisions in life..bt HEY come on.. we all make mistakes in life.. so im in that ALL group.. thr things we r not proud of.. .. I say its OK to make mistks in life.. n learn frm them n try to make it right the next time.. yea…. Yea.. I knw.. trying is not good enf.. .. :D

At times I wish I cld be grt.. forgiving.. so clam.. cooled down gal.. bt heck I cnt do that.. I get angry ..anoyed.. at times.. controlling is smthng I can do ..bt I realy get mad if I feel that ppl who are closer to my heart is making mistakes.. doing wrong things.. yea..i might be a little.. hmm…. Lets say a bit tough whn it comes to sm situations..bt I guz its all for the best.. and I knw my dear lv you understand perfectly wt im writing here..cz u v bn thr..done that.. n u knw the outcome..

I had da best moments.. days in my life with you… n im so greatful n thankful n man..i am so damn happy for all those things which u hva givn me .. n as u say.. “we will see” is wt I can say to da future.. cz life and fate do have a funny way of changing our lives.. wt we thought a year ago has totally changed in this year….n sure it will be changing in the future.. oh im NOT worried… cz I kw wt I want in life.. yea.. I sure do .. n I m gonna focus on wts my life is goin to be.. change n make the adjustment cz soon or later I hv to be serious..

Never used to being seriuz.. bt lv..u hv made me change my life.. my ways.. the way I think.. ok Not 100% ..bt yea.. at least 95% + …ok lets see.. I hv no life with me now..u hv all taken mine n I hv urs.. isn’t it ?

Wt ever hapns in life.. I KNW THE FACTS….

P.s I lve u .. !!

Ah.. today is a poya day n wat did I do ??? lets see..woke up late.. had breakfast.. n watched “August Rush”.. n then sm dtv.. Hmm..ok this is smwt turning out to be a diary entry.. so lets get to the topic I wanna write today..

“Sex & the City” .. yep.. I m sure most of u guys wld hv seen the famouse Tv series .. I hv never watched any of the episodes of S&C … n I don’t kwn why.. bt I got da SnC movies.. which is called.. “get carried away”..

Ok wts so special abt it. ? Oh guys..u v hv to see it .. specialy my gfs.. it reminded me of my JIKKA (Jaji, Imz, Kachn, Kongz & Anji) gang… oh ..we used to be THEM bk in those days.. n I wonder wat hapnd to us.. yea.. time departed us.. work left us with no free time.. we used to share all those ups n downs.. we shared all our secrets.. ok not so fashion conscious or figure conscious.. bt man we used to hv a lot of fun…… I stil can rembr.. whn Anji got cheated.. how Imz n I took her to that place .. ok its kinda island in that lake near navam mawatha.. wts it calld .. ? I cant rembr.. she didn’t cry.. bt damn.. we did curse that guy.. hik hik..yea.. typical girl frnds.. i hd to lie to home .. bt managed to ask bro to come there.. .. so I cld get a little late…. N whn da same thing hpnd to me.. geez.. how Kanch took me to see DON.. the things she wrote in da moive ticket that day.. yep.. stil hv it.. aftr .. Hmm.. 2 yrs bk.. it cmd lyk yday.. So much of sweet memories.. n whn kanch got married.. we all cldnt meet cz Jaji cldnt make it to the wed n Anji cldnt mk it to da hmcming.. .. bt hey we stil hv that bond.. I hope..

Hmmm.. y im writing this.. cz the da SnC movie brought bk all those memories.. oh I lv it.. it sure is lvly moive.. gals .. u shld watch it.. n see how its easy to loose ur way at times.. … itz all abt.. love.. trust.. commitment .. heartaches.. all that..

Bt rembr.. Don’t get carried away.. as the movie says..

Short Update....

(I dnt blog to compete with the other blogers ) So Late bloging ?? I knw.. tel me abt it.. being busy ? wt rubbish…. I was feeling hmm.. lazy.. moddy.. irritated.. . u name it I had all those.. Oh yea.. was SICK too :D n ended up inda hospital.. n da aftermath of it .. let me tel u..

Getting hospitalized is ---- NOT COOL.. getting attended by lady docs ----- NOT COOL.. but.. (of cz there is alwys a but coming..) checking out da male docs.. – SO COOL.. n yea.. inda hospital I was in .. there were some good looking docs.. n there was this one doc who is cripple by birth.. bt u knw he ended up as a doc ..n wat r we ..:D wel .. of cz we r who we r.. in good positions in life..

U knw me getin hospitalized.. wel.. dj called almost everyday..n jj kinda balsted me.. ( did u jj ? ) for not teling him…which I deny cz I DID sent a msg to him which he denies that he got it .. Mr. Pilot .. im sure it must hv gt lost in one of ur flights.. :D sory Bro…next time I wil .. CALL u :P.. n yea.. ihad an unexpected visitor…. Dinidu.. now that made my fever go high .. don’t u think Mr.Fishy ?

So after returning frm the hospital .. ya .. I can eat a lot now.. n u knw.. my modeling waist line of 24” jst went to 29”.. … no wonder I broke da ziprs in my pants.. n da loving denims.. bye bye for a while.. Oh jj NO I wont work out to reduce it to as it was… ( ya u wish… ) …

Nywys.. hoping 2hv Dj over for da P~jamy party .. n sure looking fw to that.. wow.. wt fun she n I had last tym.. .. all were perfect.. except we trying to do da rapper parts.... wel.. dj did a pretty good job doing it.. where as I was da hmm.. ok lets not talk abt it shal we..

Now.. Jjs new baby gal.. Subby…. N she is WOW !!!!!! didn’t get da close up look yet..bt im sure she is superb n fast as she looks on da pics.. want to touch her n jst jump inside n see how comfy she is…. Hmm.. OKEY.. now that sounded more lyk a lesbian talk.. wel u knw wat I mean.. ryt ? wel.. bro.. drive her safely n I DON’T want to see her kissing wat ur earlier one kissed.. ya ya.. I knw its NOT ur fault ryt.. ?

Had a weding of one of my ofz frnds.. (Dilini) n she got married to a Navy guy.. niz looking couple.. chk ma FB for the pics.. wel if I hv authorized u guys to see it.. n talking abt that.. im stil testing the authorization thingy..so .. Dj.. Jj.. n Dinidu.. jst dnt wory if u cnt view my albums for a while… oh I changed my display name into Si Gi.. (Segi) yea.. im nuts..:P

Ok so the navy weding.. hm.. non was cute though.. food was terrible.. wel.. I didn’t eat much..cz im a bit careful with da food now .. Wel we alwys hv sm bad point to tel abt ny functions .. isn’t that ryt ppl ? so there u go abt mine.. FOOD as Terrible… kinda felt lonely cz I was the only gal who wnt for the weding.. bt had a niz frnd frm ofz..(Thamara) to talk to .. ok.. in case u r wondering he is 22 .. :D ( hey I said IN CASE if u r wonderin ryt ??)

Extra innings : -
Dreams .. R they real ???

Do u guys dream? I do.. ok..so it proves that u r normal.. bt if u r keep seing the same dream almost lyk every day.. then u r NOT normal.. I recently read abook called.. ”Re-incarnation of Peter Proud” .. now that is a lovely story.. this guy sees da same dream..wel a chain of dreams…. N.. ……..ok im NOT gonna tel u da story..find da book n read it for urself …

P.s. Yea... i wrote this with my Headphones ON lyk inda pic.. Oh ..i lv myself..hik hik.. !

Totally JOB LESS ..

Since my post on “Hankies” made a little controversy among my friends I thought of putting a temporary break on my writing for a while.. (excpt da one posted aftr).. HA HA HA .. r u kidding me.. I was so damn busy n that is y cldnt write for a while.. nothing n no one can stop me from doing wt I want in life.. Hmmm.. wel.. smthings and sm people can.. bt not all…. So I m gonna write abt mixed stuff.. abt life .. frnds.. etc.. cz writing abt one subject makes me sick ..

You’ll remember me when the west wind moves - Upon the fields of barleyNo matter what you say about love, - I keep coming back for more
Now you've been holding me down - For such a long time now.
I may, may not make it through the night ..
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'You're irreplaceable…

Can u belive wt I jst did.. ? those lines r from SONGs.. n not frm the same one.. I jst don’t belive I jst destroyed such lovely lyrics by putting them in mess…. Hik hik.. yea I do that often don’t I ? Hm.. totally jobless.. TOTALLY !! lying on bed.. with da lap top…. Listn to da radio.. yea..u can be totally jobless…

Do u guys knw that these days im actually Regretting over somthn ? yea.. my motto is .. “Do it now regret later” which ofcz I stole from my brother.. bt I realized that I do regret smthings in life.. geez..i don’t lyk to be lyk da rest.. I do things differently .. alwys do.. n alwys wil… u may like them or u may not.. bt that’s jst da way I am.. Naaa..i think I wont regrt any thin in my life….

Ever since I joined FB I met lots of frnds.. aftr all these yrs.. the vry 1st frnd I had in grade 1…. Ok I didn’t meet her tro fb..bt gt her contact no. tro it.. n called her.. n boy ..didnt we had fun…. All those memories.. walking dwn da memory lane is supeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrb….. I used to hv a gd frnd whn I was in grade one.. he and I were .. totally good frnds.. n only recently I knw that all at school were saying it was da Greatest lv story ever at SMV (SMV – my previous school) .. jst becz we exchanged greeting cards n stuff.. I mean COMEON.. we wer jst kids.. I was laughing my wits out whn I heard it.. wel heard that he is now married now … niz looking hunky by da way..;) bt honestly I didn’t even rembrd who he was until Lahiru..one of my frnds reminded me wt were happening those days.. it sure was damn embarrassing.. wel..wt a frnd I am.. L .. forgtn da childhood frnds.. oh..wt to do.. a lot hv changed ever since.. we all r difrnt stages in our lives..sm r married… abroad.. lost..:D etc., BUT .. we r gonna plan out a day out with all our grd 1 frnds..whom we can get in touch with.. now wldnt that be niz…. Cnt wait to meet them.. .. Wel whn it comes to frnds.. yea.. I hav all kind of frnds.. best frnds.. jst frnds.. good frnds.. never seen or talked frnds.. etc.,.. wel dnt hv any Jailed frnds.. so u can be da FIRST.. so break da law ppl .. n be that special one in my frnds list..

Recently Jj,. my 2nd bro.. met with an accidents.. he kissed a light post instead of his GF.. can u blv it..? guys r dying to kiss their gfs n this guy just wnt right at a light post.. :D ok ok jj dnt kil me..:P … whn I saw da pics..i was crying.. y.. ??? wel Jj was ok..bt da car wasn’t.. that is y… Ok ok.. reality chk.. I jst realized that such tings hpnd unexpectedly.. n we never knw wt lies ahead of us.. im guzing that is y ppl say .. say wt u want to say befr it too late.. or may be u l never gt that chance again….wel I dnt knw abt that..cz I v never done it befr.. hav u ? if so tel me ..did it turned out to be good or worse oki?

Oh i need to ask u guys one thing.. do u guys sing while u r inda shower ? or whn u r inda room alone ?? for me ofcz it depends..cz whn im inda shower the radio is always on.. wel in on most of the time..cz ever since akki left for US.,, its bloody lazy n boring.. so lonely too..:( ok bk to wat I was saying.. so do u guys DO that.?.. now now..dnt blame me for bring da shower part.. ! my apologize.. ok forgt that then. Wt abt dancing inda rain ? sure most u all hv done it.. RAIT ?? if it’s a NO.. u btr do it…. Jumping to the mud holes.. soo much fun.. if da answer to all the above is NO.. then ppl u hv a serious prob of hving a little fun in ur life.. spice it up a bit..

Movies.. oh I hv only one movie on my mind these days.. wil stay for a while.. yea yea.. COA (cityofangels) is my life movie..bt “P.s. I love you” .. ah.. itz gonna collide with da COA.. good thing its all movies.. not lvrs.. hik hik..if so .. man..that wld be smthng ..ugly.. :D Im gonna end this one with da song im listen to it.. let me type my fav line from that song....

“ Thera he thera inthazar hey.. Mujutoa basa thujse payra hey.. “ ok ok.. its frm ad movie RACE..(Song title.. - Zara Zara touch me) wow..that sure was a super movie.. Hindi.. bt lvly.. songs r sooooooooo niz.. watch it ppl.. Meaning of that line ??.. hik hik..its for me to knw n u to find out.. if u guys do find it.. send to me..