Y ?

Hmm.... wantd to write a good blog bt not inda mood.. y do ppl cm close to you n they start loving u n make u feel sad at da same time.. its a big question Y !! ?

One Sad night i was crying so much i cldnt evn breath .. so laid onda tile.. was stairing at the ceiling was thinking wt hv i ever done to ny1 to feel this pain.. i think i kinda acused the up above heavn for al the sadnes.. many times i wished i d die.. bt funny isnt it ..whn u wnt to die u dont n whn u wnt to live.. stil u dnt die..bt da ones who shld be living are dead..thats da nature i guz..

im happy bt im sad.. i smile bt i cry .. honestly .. i hv hurt so much i knw in a few days time.. i l not feel wt it means to be hurt.. almst everynyt i go to sleep crying..or hving a hurtful thought in my mind... iv been accused, hurt, been blasted into .. bt stil i live n love n wil be doing da same ..

why cnt ppl jst undrstnd me.. why do they alwys hv to prov that they knw abt me btr thn i knw myself ? why is it that they wnt to shw that they r da best n im da one at fault alwys ? Y Y Y Y ?? may be i dnt knw how they feel.. too obviz they dnt knw wt n how i feel ..

Cnt feel my love.. cnt feel i care.. cnt feel i do my best to change into a totaly difrnt persn.. y is it alwys their lv ..their care, their change is more Quality than mine ?? Hmm.... ??

No one sees me for wat i am.. is thr ny1 who loves me for WHO n WAT i am ? do they even knw the difrnt btwn that ? love isnt enf.. understnding too plays a big role.. isnt it ? i doubt that nyone can come out with 10 best things they knw abt me .. or whethr thy can tel me 10 best things thy'v done for me .. can u ? proove im wrong..

i wish i d nver felt lv,, nevr bn in lv,, it jst to hurtful..

why take my love for granted..my lve is nt a weaknes..its a feeling.. pure ? to me yes.. bt for u ? is it ??? yes or No ?? answer urself with my question of Y ?

" If i were a boy - i think i could understand

how it feels to love a girl - id swear id be a better man

id listen to her - cause i know how it hurts

when you loose the one u wanted - cause hes taken you for granted

and every thing you had got destoryd " (beyonce)

Ps. No i dnt need ya feed bk nor comments.. plz spare me that !