Ah.. today is a poya day n wat did I do ??? lets see..woke up late.. had breakfast.. n watched “August Rush”.. n then sm dtv.. Hmm..ok this is smwt turning out to be a diary entry.. so lets get to the topic I wanna write today..

“Sex & the City” .. yep.. I m sure most of u guys wld hv seen the famouse Tv series .. I hv never watched any of the episodes of S&C … n I don’t kwn why.. bt I got da SnC movies.. which is called.. “get carried away”..

Ok wts so special abt it. ? Oh guys..u v hv to see it .. specialy my gfs.. it reminded me of my JIKKA (Jaji, Imz, Kachn, Kongz & Anji) gang… oh ..we used to be THEM bk in those days.. n I wonder wat hapnd to us.. yea.. time departed us.. work left us with no free time.. we used to share all those ups n downs.. we shared all our secrets.. ok not so fashion conscious or figure conscious.. bt man we used to hv a lot of fun…… I stil can rembr.. whn Anji got cheated.. how Imz n I took her to that place .. ok its kinda island in that lake near navam mawatha.. wts it calld .. ? I cant rembr.. she didn’t cry.. bt damn.. we did curse that guy.. hik hik..yea.. typical girl frnds.. i hd to lie to home .. bt managed to ask bro to come there.. .. so I cld get a little late…. N whn da same thing hpnd to me.. geez.. how Kanch took me to see DON.. the things she wrote in da moive ticket that day.. yep.. stil hv it.. aftr .. Hmm.. 2 yrs bk.. it cmd lyk yday.. So much of sweet memories.. n whn kanch got married.. we all cldnt meet cz Jaji cldnt make it to the wed n Anji cldnt mk it to da hmcming.. .. bt hey we stil hv that bond.. I hope..

Hmmm.. y im writing this.. cz the da SnC movie brought bk all those memories.. oh I lv it.. it sure is lvly moive.. gals .. u shld watch it.. n see how its easy to loose ur way at times.. … itz all abt.. love.. trust.. commitment .. heartaches.. all that..

Bt rembr.. Don’t get carried away.. as the movie says..

Short Update....

(I dnt blog to compete with the other blogers ) So Late bloging ?? I knw.. tel me abt it.. being busy ? wt rubbish…. I was feeling hmm.. lazy.. moddy.. irritated.. . u name it I had all those.. Oh yea.. was SICK too :D n ended up inda hospital.. n da aftermath of it .. let me tel u..

Getting hospitalized is ---- NOT COOL.. getting attended by lady docs ----- NOT COOL.. but.. (of cz there is alwys a but coming..) checking out da male docs.. – SO COOL.. n yea.. inda hospital I was in .. there were some good looking docs.. n there was this one doc who is cripple by birth.. bt u knw he ended up as a doc ..n wat r we ..:D wel .. of cz we r who we r.. in good positions in life..

U knw me getin hospitalized.. wel.. dj called almost everyday..n jj kinda balsted me.. ( did u jj ? ) for not teling him…which I deny cz I DID sent a msg to him which he denies that he got it .. Mr. Pilot .. im sure it must hv gt lost in one of ur flights.. :D sory Bro…next time I wil .. CALL u :P.. n yea.. ihad an unexpected visitor…. Dinidu.. now that made my fever go high .. don’t u think Mr.Fishy ?

So after returning frm the hospital .. ya .. I can eat a lot now.. n u knw.. my modeling waist line of 24” jst went to 29”.. … no wonder I broke da ziprs in my pants.. n da loving denims.. bye bye for a while.. Oh jj NO I wont work out to reduce it to as it was… ( ya u wish… ) …

Nywys.. hoping 2hv Dj over for da P~jamy party .. n sure looking fw to that.. wow.. wt fun she n I had last tym.. .. all were perfect.. except we trying to do da rapper parts.... wel.. dj did a pretty good job doing it.. where as I was da hmm.. ok lets not talk abt it shal we..

Now.. Jjs new baby gal.. Subby…. N she is WOW !!!!!! didn’t get da close up look yet..bt im sure she is superb n fast as she looks on da pics.. want to touch her n jst jump inside n see how comfy she is…. Hmm.. OKEY.. now that sounded more lyk a lesbian talk.. wel u knw wat I mean.. ryt ? wel.. bro.. drive her safely n I DON’T want to see her kissing wat ur earlier one kissed.. ya ya.. I knw its NOT ur fault ryt.. ?

Had a weding of one of my ofz frnds.. (Dilini) n she got married to a Navy guy.. niz looking couple.. chk ma FB for the pics.. wel if I hv authorized u guys to see it.. n talking abt that.. im stil testing the authorization thingy..so .. Dj.. Jj.. n Dinidu.. jst dnt wory if u cnt view my albums for a while… oh I changed my display name into Si Gi.. (Segi) yea.. im nuts..:P

Ok so the navy weding.. hm.. non was cute though.. food was terrible.. wel.. I didn’t eat much..cz im a bit careful with da food now .. Wel we alwys hv sm bad point to tel abt ny functions .. isn’t that ryt ppl ? so there u go abt mine.. FOOD as Terrible… kinda felt lonely cz I was the only gal who wnt for the weding.. bt had a niz frnd frm ofz..(Thamara) to talk to .. ok.. in case u r wondering he is 22 .. :D ( hey I said IN CASE if u r wonderin ryt ??)

Extra innings : -
Dreams .. R they real ???

Do u guys dream? I do.. ok..so it proves that u r normal.. bt if u r keep seing the same dream almost lyk every day.. then u r NOT normal.. I recently read abook called.. ”Re-incarnation of Peter Proud” .. now that is a lovely story.. this guy sees da same dream..wel a chain of dreams…. N.. ……..ok im NOT gonna tel u da story..find da book n read it for urself …

P.s. Yea... i wrote this with my Headphones ON lyk inda pic.. Oh ..i lv myself..hik hik.. !

Totally JOB LESS ..

Since my post on “Hankies” made a little controversy among my friends I thought of putting a temporary break on my writing for a while.. (excpt da one posted aftr).. HA HA HA .. r u kidding me.. I was so damn busy n that is y cldnt write for a while.. nothing n no one can stop me from doing wt I want in life.. Hmmm.. wel.. smthings and sm people can.. bt not all…. So I m gonna write abt mixed stuff.. abt life .. frnds.. etc.. cz writing abt one subject makes me sick ..

You’ll remember me when the west wind moves - Upon the fields of barleyNo matter what you say about love, - I keep coming back for more
Now you've been holding me down - For such a long time now.
I may, may not make it through the night ..
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'You're irreplaceable…

Can u belive wt I jst did.. ? those lines r from SONGs.. n not frm the same one.. I jst don’t belive I jst destroyed such lovely lyrics by putting them in mess…. Hik hik.. yea I do that often don’t I ? Hm.. totally jobless.. TOTALLY !! lying on bed.. with da lap top…. Listn to da radio.. yea..u can be totally jobless…

Do u guys knw that these days im actually Regretting over somthn ? yea.. my motto is .. “Do it now regret later” which ofcz I stole from my brother.. bt I realized that I do regret smthings in life.. geez..i don’t lyk to be lyk da rest.. I do things differently .. alwys do.. n alwys wil… u may like them or u may not.. bt that’s jst da way I am.. Naaa..i think I wont regrt any thin in my life….

Ever since I joined FB I met lots of frnds.. aftr all these yrs.. the vry 1st frnd I had in grade 1…. Ok I didn’t meet her tro fb..bt gt her contact no. tro it.. n called her.. n boy ..didnt we had fun…. All those memories.. walking dwn da memory lane is supeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrb….. I used to hv a gd frnd whn I was in grade one.. he and I were .. totally good frnds.. n only recently I knw that all at school were saying it was da Greatest lv story ever at SMV (SMV – my previous school) .. jst becz we exchanged greeting cards n stuff.. I mean COMEON.. we wer jst kids.. I was laughing my wits out whn I heard it.. wel heard that he is now married now … niz looking hunky by da way..;) bt honestly I didn’t even rembrd who he was until Lahiru..one of my frnds reminded me wt were happening those days.. it sure was damn embarrassing.. wel..wt a frnd I am.. L .. forgtn da childhood frnds.. oh..wt to do.. a lot hv changed ever since.. we all r difrnt stages in our lives..sm r married… abroad.. lost..:D etc., BUT .. we r gonna plan out a day out with all our grd 1 frnds..whom we can get in touch with.. now wldnt that be niz…. Cnt wait to meet them.. .. Wel whn it comes to frnds.. yea.. I hav all kind of frnds.. best frnds.. jst frnds.. good frnds.. never seen or talked frnds.. etc.,.. wel dnt hv any Jailed frnds.. so u can be da FIRST.. so break da law ppl .. n be that special one in my frnds list..

Recently Jj,. my 2nd bro.. met with an accidents.. he kissed a light post instead of his GF.. can u blv it..? guys r dying to kiss their gfs n this guy just wnt right at a light post.. :D ok ok jj dnt kil me..:P … whn I saw da pics..i was crying.. y.. ??? wel Jj was ok..bt da car wasn’t.. that is y… Ok ok.. reality chk.. I jst realized that such tings hpnd unexpectedly.. n we never knw wt lies ahead of us.. im guzing that is y ppl say .. say wt u want to say befr it too late.. or may be u l never gt that chance again….wel I dnt knw abt that..cz I v never done it befr.. hav u ? if so tel me ..did it turned out to be good or worse oki?

Oh i need to ask u guys one thing.. do u guys sing while u r inda shower ? or whn u r inda room alone ?? for me ofcz it depends..cz whn im inda shower the radio is always on.. wel in on most of the time..cz ever since akki left for US.,, its bloody lazy n boring.. so lonely too..:( ok bk to wat I was saying.. so do u guys DO that.?.. now now..dnt blame me for bring da shower part.. ! my apologize.. ok forgt that then. Wt abt dancing inda rain ? sure most u all hv done it.. RAIT ?? if it’s a NO.. u btr do it…. Jumping to the mud holes.. soo much fun.. if da answer to all the above is NO.. then ppl u hv a serious prob of hving a little fun in ur life.. spice it up a bit..

Movies.. oh I hv only one movie on my mind these days.. wil stay for a while.. yea yea.. COA (cityofangels) is my life movie..bt “P.s. I love you” .. ah.. itz gonna collide with da COA.. good thing its all movies.. not lvrs.. hik hik..if so .. man..that wld be smthng ..ugly.. :D Im gonna end this one with da song im listen to it.. let me type my fav line from that song....

“ Thera he thera inthazar hey.. Mujutoa basa thujse payra hey.. “ ok ok.. its frm ad movie RACE..(Song title.. - Zara Zara touch me) wow..that sure was a super movie.. Hindi.. bt lvly.. songs r sooooooooo niz.. watch it ppl.. Meaning of that line ??.. hik hik..its for me to knw n u to find out.. if u guys do find it.. send to me..

Such a P i t N ! (Kidding yarrs)

Hmm.. now wt shld I write abt this time.. cz the last post made sm pple to go mad at me or think im mad or .. well.. wt ever.. !!!

U knw guys.. we cry for the little things in our lives n laugh for the big stuff?? Everyday whn I get into the bus .. I at least smile to myself looking at the ppl arnd me.. Once my sis said that .. one uncle was sort of a hanging in the rope fixed to the bell inda bus n fell dwn with it.. how funny is that.. :D ok not so funny !! hv u ever seen how ppl take out their mobiles n try to show off .. errr.. . I hate it.. .. yea I v seen it.. not that I look for it.. no offence.. I too listn to the radio or the music player in my mob too.. bt I DON’T show off ! :P .. oh n Dinidu .. I stil sit on da side of the driver thanks to u buddy ! .. n u knw .. I cnt rembr a single day that u don’t make me annoyed.. u r sooooo….. irritating at times. . u knw that.. Fishy.. :P.. rembr how u were teling me abt the movie.. P.s… ??? I was lyk.. ok Plz stop .. u dnt lyk it..keep it to urself..dnt tel me.. bt inda end .. u said.. no I loved it.. thanks.. etc., :d BOYS !! wel.. Computer Geeks.. as DJ wld say..

Recently Jj, my best frnd.. hit a kite with da plane he was flying.. now how cool is that.. Ahem..yea sm said that it’s a sin n bla bla.. bt .. stil its so awsom bro.. High FIVE for it.. come on ppl.. its not lyk everyday u can hit a kite n how cool that is to be hit by a plane.. means that kite was so damn high in the sky that it was in a way of a plane.. I think its pretty cool.. don’t ya? Wel unless u can get ur kite fly that high that is.. :D U kwn Jj n Dj had sorta fight over this kite thingy.. where she ended up calling Jj the KITE KILLER n I ended up callin him.. Mr. Jj Kites.. wonder wt his pilot bros call him.. :D

Talking abt naming.. I named Djs bbf as Cookieee… yeap.. Cookieee… cz he can cook..n he is da colour of chocolates.. Yum yum.. for Dj .. yea.. Dj said she did ate him a bit.. Yuk ! :D ok I m guessing it’s a lie.. hope so…

Abt me not wanting to marry .. .. geez… I dnt kw why ppl worry abt me not wanting to marry.. come on .. singles rule .. isn’t it ? so y do u want me to get married?? Hmm.. yea I knw .. u cnt be a single gal in SL .. yep agree.. errr.. no I dnt .. bt stil … we wil c.. this is da only pro I hv these days.. see my life is so perfect.. that I m gtn only one prob..

Hmm.. yea .. my bf n I hd a bit of a misundrstnd.. n I totally take the blame to myself.. besides.. how cn I expect others to understand me.. whn I dnt understand wt da hell im doing .. :D .. oh it hapns to me at times..mostly if Jj isn’t arnd.. isnt that funny.. me loosing myself..whn my bro isn’t arnd… Okey that is NOT true.. wel.. upto some extnt that is .. There were times I felt that all my frnds hv changed.. bt I guz..its me who has changed.. CHANGE is GOOD ppl.. bt NOT all da time.. Nywys.. lov u guys for bn there even I mess up.. yea I knw Jj.. “sis u don’t mess up.” Of cz I don’t .. u ppl do n blame me for it.. hahahahaha!!

Ok .. now do u want to kill me again ?? c .. Dj n Jj had this fantasy of dropping me off of a plane without a Para.. yea its not gonna hapn so its more lyk a never coming true fanta.. :P .

Wel.. ok ppl .. me going to sleep now.. this is much betr than writing abt one topic isn’t it.. ? Blog dirary sorta thing.. im too lazy to read this again.. so mind for the grammer n speling mistakes..

Lv u guys.. Ummah!!

DeLeTeD!

Deleted ….!!

Hey all …. Missed ME ? Come on !! I knw u did.. with all those complaining .. I knw u did.. nywys.. my apologies for not posting anything in the blog.. the reason.. wel.. mostly cz I joined FB.. so kinda killed my time checking it out…I met lot of my frnds.. made sm new friends.. (some r celebrities) … wel u ppl knw wt im talking abt.. don’t u now ?

I knw that most of my posts r kinda different.. so y shld I deviate from wt I do ryt ? u c guys.. I was really lost without a topic to write smthng abt.. n I m sure I have evn asked u guys abt it also.. but.. never got wat I wanted.. .. Shan .. my newest best friend (hmm... cute guy from UK.. hik hik... ) .. came up with an interesting topic.. “spying” .. wel.. whn I was in grade 9 I wanted to becm a detective.. Detective Konga… now that would have been Odd don’t you think? Besides who wld benefit from me becoming a detective.. I shld hv been a under covered agent.. with looks lyk mine (ahem) I cld hv easily seduced any one to confess anything… hik hik… (Good thing that I m not.. ) nywys.. abt spying n detective work..i l write on another day..

So tying to brain storm a topic.. I came up with this … power of DELETE !! yep.. it sure feels gr8.. only 2 ppl in this world knw wt I mean….. Dj n Jj.. my two partners who wld run for their lives leaving me behind.. if we guys ever get into trouble …hik hik… naaa.. il tel u other guys what I deleted…

I knw.. this post is too short… bt I am so glad that I found out wt it feels to delete things from my life..… yep. Its not a BIG deal.. bt Guys. There is this guy.. whom I was holding on for a long time.. Wel.. come to think of it.. I don’t think I hv really.. cz never talked abt him or rembrd him unless I see an update of him in FB.. wel.. I wanted him out of my life for good.. n whn I see him.. I jst kinda was feeling sad.. obvious.. I lvd him.. a lot.. bt now its time for this crazy nut to move on leaving him behind.. yea.. flush him down the toilet.. that is wt I did.. So glad I did that…so loving Dj n Jj.. I did it.. N I knw Dj it was you who told me to do it first.. n Jj told me da same whn I told him how I was feeling. .. simple appreciation for the two guardian angels .. ( ok no you two r NOT angels) I just wrote it so u guys wld feel happy.. u knw.. AH.. finally iv bn called an Angel… hahahah !!

Recently I watched this movie called “Jab We Met” .. a hindi movie.. n I loved it.. superb.. I lvd how she blasted da guy who played her a fool.. n finally that dumb one wanted her back.. n she rejects him..watch da movie cz im not going to tel u da end or the other things which hpns in da movie.. People do hv different ways of letting go.. n sm things in life we never let go.. n that sucks.. it shld never be lik that.. don’t u think ??

i once read an eamil which said.. "Name a document called "Boss" , save it in da desk top.. select it n press delete.. it wil ask u " R U sure u want to send "Boss" to the Recyle Bin?" n u hv select YES n Da boss wil be inda R~bin.. so i think .. since we create our own documents .. folders .. memories in our lives.. when its time.. we shld send them to the RB ..... Bt hey Dnt delete me from ur lives.. as the pic says.. if u do.. then ITS ur lost .. hahahah !!

Nywys my loving readers if there is worthless things in ur life.... just PRESS DELETE !!

Imagination running wild .. !!

When you hear the word Fantasy what does it mean to you ? wt comes to your mind? Think ….. is it just a dream? Hope ? Desire??? Wel.. it is a combination of all those things.. n when I hear the word fantasy.. it makes me want to dream about some 3ble Ex things.. (yeah yeah dirty mind.. hahahahaa) well in our culture if I say.. its all abt sex or hving a desire to be with someone.. most of you wil say its dirty.. bt hey.. I don’t think it is dirty.. we all dream abt it.. don’t you ? I do..

Now if I openly talk abt that subject I hv no idea wat all of you would think.. cz openly talking abt your fantasies will make some of us feel uncomfortable.. Why do we have fantasies? As to wat I knw.. I belive its bcz we make them bcz we cant have them.. wen that happns we tend to think how would it feel to make it a reality to be with that one person whom u alwys wanted.. or to go places u always dream of.. to own an small island n to hv a pvt jet .. live in paradise.. (ring any bells anyone ? )

First things first.. can fantasies come true? Dreams come true.. I mean how many times hv u heard someone saying “ I had my dreams come true” or I v heard a song which says.. “dreams can come ture.. look at me babe.. I m with you.. “ so.. its certain that Dreams do come ture.. bt wat abt fantasies.. ? can they come true also ? Ofcz.. anything is possible if u put ur heart and soul to it. .BUT.. I want my fants to be fants.. cz then only its more interesting.. cz whn we get wt we want.. then it becomes ordinary .. not special.. isn’t it ?
U knw.. there are another side to this fantasy land.. rembr all those fairy tales u read.. n watched ? all those r someone’s imaginations .. which create a fantasy where u see all wt u cnt see for real.. its so amazing how we let our feelings, imaginations to create things which are beyond explanations..
Bt hey.. remebr.. fantasies are jst for the pleasure.. so keep it that way.. thn I m sure that u l be happy at least in ur fantasy land.. after all they all r our imaginations running wild.. !!

Me n My Freedom !

I’m sure almost all of you people who r reading this post (including my beloved sis) are enjoying your freedom to the maximum.. now do I hear some one yelling NO? OH! Wait.. that isn’t any of you.. its me.. I’m the one who is yelling NO.. (geez. My voice is so annoying to me at times..)


Now what do you mean by freedom? Is it only wearing wat you want ? or travelling to places where u always wanted to go OR watching tv all daylong ? wel.. for me freedom basically means Living my life the way I want it!! How many souls out there are living that life ha? No barriers.. no one to tel you what u should do.. what u shld wear or even what you should eat..

I for a girl who never had the freedom to go anywhere without my parents.. (which applied to my sis).. is doing fine with the limited freedom I have.. one strategy I follow is that I normally DO NOT tell my parents where I go and wat I do.. which my friends are NOT healthy at all.. I repeat.. NOT Healthy at all .. bt hey.. I get wat I want ... so it fulfils at least one side of my life.. come to think of the current situ in the country. .these days..i LOVE to stay at home than going out.. hv the cable tv.. so can watch tv all day long.. bt one thing .. is that .. U want your freedom from home.. keep your parents in a GOOD MOOD ! bt wat I can say abt my dad is that.. he is totally ok all the time.. bt no sooner I ask for permission to go out with my friends.. you should see his FACE.. lyk he has been possessed by some devil or something.. Im sure my sis knws wat I mean.. even for her.. there was a time she hated to be at home.. wel… she hated almost everyone.. all at home were limiting her freedom.. (wel EXCEPT me ofcz.. ) I had to teach her how I got wat I want.. bt sadly.. she was not that patient at all to get wat she wants.. finally my teachings were so good that she went to US and got married over there.. hmmm.. come to think of it.. it aint bad at all isn’t it ?

Eventually most of the barriers I had when I was a little girl are now gone.. wel.. its more like I can watch wat I want… can wear wt I want.. can stay up til late in the night if feel lyk it and even .. surf the net til I want.. the latest where I stayed up late was til 2 am in da morning I gues.. I cant rember wt I was doing late so up.. err.. may be chatting to someone .. I think..

The freedom from the boyfriend ? wel.. I hv to admit that I never had any freedom barriers from my lover in wat so ever.. I had a good freedom even then and even now.. Y ? cz he was million miles apart from me.. yeah.. we broke up.. and that is a different story.. bt I m so glad that I was never asked NOT to do things.. wel.. that’s abt the past bf life…. Bt u c.. some guys don’t want their girl frnds to do things.. wear things.. even say things.. I mean COME ON .. where is the love and freedom in that ? ok.. I agree if the girl is doing or wearing or saying something unsuitable u guys MUST stop it.. bt have u ever wondered.. whether all wat you do is right? Or all wat you say is rite ? for guys.. there is no point of saying.. “hey WAT the hell are u wearing” cz.. its alwys.. a Denim and a T for them.. bt I hate guys who wear their trousers to the hip.. yeik ! I mean.. come on guys.. for heavens sake.. why do u want show ur HIPS ? ?? (ok i understand its ur way of showing ur FREEdom ) ha ha ha !

Stil for all.. we are born to this world as free human beings and that is the way we should die too.. bt sadly.. girls hv their limits when it comes to freedom in SL.. as a Daughter.. as a wife.. and finally as a mother.. (freedom under a Male.. father.. husband and the son.. ) Hey..i m not complaining.. cz stil im in da Daughter stage.. I l write abt the losing of freedom to the husband one day, if I get a chance.. (or the husband can write abt loosing HIS freedom to me ! hik hik..)

Come wat may.. it’s a free world out there people.. enjoy your freedom to the maximum but knw your limits always… Cheers !

Dare to Reveal????

Secrets !!

Now this is a topic which all the people in the whole wide world can relate to .. why do we have secrets in our lives? Who creates them? How does it becomes a secret? Who else knws abt that secret ? these are the questions we normally DON’T think of bcz the answer itself is a secret which we have within our hearts..

Do I have secrets ? OF CZ I do.. lots of them.. !! wil I ever reveal them to anyone..? ya .. RIGHT ! lyk I would want any of you to blackmail me.. !! ah… some secrets.. I share with my friends.. and it becomes.. a secret between the friends.. lyk some wat Dj n I have.. we can all laugh abt it when we get together.. Do you have secrets that .. although u want to tell them to anyone, abt u cant? I do.. there are a lot I want to tel someone.. or share them with.. bt HELL I cant do that.. can U ? ok.. im not talking abt I hv a crush on a guy or nythin lyk.. hmm.. is there any secrets that I can publish ? errr.. hmmm.. wel.if I tel you .. then it wont be a secret..it wil be PUBLIC.. I used to watch my neighbor get dressed tro his bedroom window.. (ok let me explain.. he never had a bedroom window curtain.. and he comes near the window to get dressed.. and my bedroom window jst happened to be in a place where I see wat I want to see from where I sleep.. of cz its my bed..yes.. I had my sister by my side.. and she too was involved in that BIRD Watchin! Or should I say.. Mangifera sis ? ) I used to read my sisters diary.. (after she CONFESSED reading mine..)..bt people it’s a boring one.. lost interest after a while.. well those r a few secrets which I can WRITE n pretty innocent ones of cz.. and mostly all of you who knws me knws them too.. hik hik.. !!

I think.. we make our own secrets, simply because we don’t anyone else to knw abt them bt.. mostly.. we are not proud of what we have said and done.. my theory is that.. don’t ask don’t tel.. it’s the best way to keep a secret.. sometimes.. what you knw can put in a great danger.. as I said they r the Deadly secrets.. the famz.. “I knw wat you did last summer”.. hv you guys seen it ? u keep a secret.. and it comes to haunt you back.. any secrets u have which are haunting you at nyt ? ha ? are there ? let me knw.. !

We all have a closet full of secrets.. more we live this life.. the more we wil add.. and the more we wil add the more we wil suffer.. cz.. there r so many secrets.. and we forget which one to keep n which one to should let go.. do you knw that girls are the ones who keep the most number of secrets? Yeah guys… we the girls are the MOST sneakiest creatures on earth.. come to think of it.. its give a kicking feeling to keep a secret…. don’t you think girls ? I have friends who talk abt their guys behaviors or the girls behaviors.. which of cz the other party don’t knw of.. and it automatically becomes a secret between me and my friend who tells it to me.... it amazing how people see each others partners.. it is a good thing to knw abt your partner.. but.. for the betterment of the relationship.. keep some secrets to yourselves.. much safer..

The worlds history have secrets of its own.. take the Davinci Code .. now if you have read the book or watched the movie.. now thre r more secrets and unknown facts which we were never aware of.. ok.. may be some r been created… bt don’t you ever wonder.. what if it is the truth? The secret to all those paintings in history.. does it related to anyting.. well.. in that way .. it becomes a mystery more than a secret.. bt hey.. one can be a mystery if knowbody knws abt it ..so obviously the secrets we all carry wil one day turns out to be mysteries..

Secrets – I kw wat you did !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Will you settle for Less than perfect ?

Oh boy. I don’t kw why I want to write abt this .. but here I am writing abt it.. have you realized that after u get into a relationship you meet that one person whom you feel more than what you feel for you partner ? Yes ? or NO ? wel.. i think the most of you would say YES.. or OH YES!! and if so.. wt hav you done abt it ? NOTHING ? or did u really went out n got wt u want ? Kool !

‘Everybody Cheats’ ths is my theory.. it doesn’t hv to be in major ways.. bt in minor minor ways .. we all do that.. now I will not accept if any of you guys say.. “No I have never cheated.” ok fine.... I agree but cheating cannot be framed to a person starting an affair with another guy or a girl whilst having n affair.. if you lie to your partner.. or if u don’t share the incidents that are more important to u in life n you tell others abt it...... that too is cheating in a way.. itz not lyn cz you never say anything.. bt cheating.. yeah.. I v done that.. Y ? simply because .. I never felt that he would understand .. did I tried to tell him? I tires.. bt I guz not.. when u r in a relationship you kwn wt your partner is lyk…. so its better to keep your mouth SHUT at times.. without creating a situ.. over NOTHING! Im sure u know what I mean… Agreed ?

We all dream about having the perfect marriage or prior to that to hv da perfect partner .. don’t we ? I don’t kw abt you guys.. bt I did…. well.. all my choices never fit da frame I had.. came close.. bt didn’t fit .. the ones who knows wat happened .. kwn wat happened.. the ‘tall hansom hunky’ I never met.. so far.. bt once did met a guy who had a niz heart.. bt suddenly.. he went far away.. I stil wonder how n y did it happen.. may be. .. becz my life must hv realized that its not wat I deserve.. or may be he n I both deserve better or we both don’t deserve each other.. who knws.. n who cares anyways.. those days passed and im still living.. n living the life I always wanted.. (not exactly bt happily) so I guz.. I m jst doing fine.. okay.. I think im deviating from the topic. .dont i..? ok..letz go back to the less than perfect theory..

So do we get into a relationship because we feel that person is the perfect match for us ? I think we all r gambling whn we say yes .. n that gambling may hit the Jackpot or we may jst loose all wat we already had and left with nothing.. im not married yet.. bt the ones who are married now.. hv you guyz settled for less than perfect? Is your hubby is the perfect one ? or is you wify is ?. .. but so far.. I have not met that couple.. who said.. YES he is the perfect match or she is.. ! Come to think of it.. who are we kidding.. ourselves ? we settle for wat we get in life.. instead of searching for the best .. we adjust to wat comes in our way… cz nobody wants to be lonely…I for a fact knowing all this.. sure is going to be satisfied with wat I get from life.. cz.. less than perfect is the perfect.. n on the other hand NOBODY is perfect and so am i.. !!!

R u an Angel ?

Angels who are Angels? Can we see them ? or do they really exist ? . I v been called an Angel so many times.. (oh plz believe me.!! I hv n may be u r one of them who called me by that..) n once I was called a goddess .. of cz that was not for the looks bt for the help I did. .bt is there really a meaning by calling a person an Angel? When we love someone we say “Angel” to them but I sometimes wonder if itz really worth it? Literally speaking angels are more lyk DEAD and up in heaven and so pretty that you can never take ur eyes off of them.. Well.. I hv never seen an Angel in my life yet.. (of cz I v seen myself hik hikk) n may be if I go to heaven one day .. then I will see for myself.. but in the first place.. who has really seen them ? How can we say that angels do exist ? or are they been really created for the fairytales .. ? since the normal human beings cannot do things by way of magic the act of performing such things were done by the unforeseen forces.. now.. if angels are able to do magic.. are the so called witches too are angels in anyway ?? it’s something we will never know I guess..

City of Angels .. one of my favs.. y do I love this movie so much ? was it because of Nicholas cage? Or was it because Meg Ryan or WAS it because its about an angel who gave up all his gifted powers to be with the love of his life ? it can be 4all these reasons.. im sure most of the people by now have leant that loving an angel with all your heart wont do any good at the end.. either you move away or they turn away.. COA.. the girl Maggie dies.. nd the Angel is left alone.. as a normal human being.. so was it worth it ? to give all you have n ends up with nothing.. ? sadly. . it happens.. most of the time.. so I guess Irish (song by Goo Goo dolls) says it all .. for this movie. . You are the closest to heaven that I live and breath.. “

How could an angel break my heart ?. (Tony Braxton) this is a song I used to sing along when I was in grade 10 or 11 I think.. I never knw wt the hell she meant and how does it feels to get your heart broken by an angel.. do I knw it now ? hmm.. cant say tht I don’t.. n cnt say I do either.. it all depends the way we feel for each other.. and that is when we realized that we all r just simple human beings and nothing more or less.. watz ur opinion?

What can we do to become an Angel?? Do u know the answer ? well I think I can guz ur answer.. mine is that . u have to DIE n GO to heaven to be a one.. so aren’t there any Angels on earth that are been sent from heaven up above? (Except for me ) there must be.. and there will be .. they must be the ones who save us.. when we don’t expect.. they are the ones who pushes us into trouble.. nd make our lives miserable.. bt sadly those were sent from Hell. N called Dark Angels.

Bt hey.. it isn’t that bad of hving an angel .. any kind of angel by your side.. after all .. its we who make our own angels.. we can make the angel of love,,, angel of joy or even the angel of death…

But the remaining question is question is .. R you one of them ???



THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE (X FILES)

My BF Dj.. Hey itz Best frnd. NOT Boy FRND !

This is the blog I dedicate to my dear old best friend Kemali..

AH ! wat da heck.. that is jst a formal introductin.. let me start it lyk this.. Have any of you cm across a girl whom u think is so innocent and is an angel.. ? bt finally she turns out to be an dark Angel ? so cruel.. heartless creature.. u do ? ok .. good for you.. be careful of them ok..

Wel. The above para have gt nothing to do with my best frnd.. I jst thought of writing that.. cz. Its always good to remind people to be careful u knw.. hik hik..

So my best frnd.. I hv read many articles.. the little ones write to the news papers abt their best frnds.. and they write their frnds name there.. bt I can guarantee.. its my best frnd who have the most number of nick names or pet names.. as u call it..

I l start with Kemali.. cz.. that is her real name.. kinda old fashin isnt it.. ? if u really look at her name.. its more lyk K-email or kay+male.. wt an ODD name for a girl.. hm.. I thought .. y don’t I call her K. yeap.. that was her very first nick name that I gave her.. bt after while.. all at school.. started calling her K.. then I was lyk WTF ! she is my best frnd.. so i wanted to be the only one whom shld be calling her by that name..

Oh.. heck.. all u readers.. please put to the reverse gear.. go back.. go back.. I l start at the beginning.. well.. as to wt Dj said in her blog.. it is da way we met.. at Devi.. and she was “L” s best frnd.. or may be jst a frnd.. I stil can rembr how she intro me to Dj.. near the LADIES toilet.. hik hik.. smelly !! anyways.. when Dj n I became good frnds.. I m sure non of has thought that we wil stil be frnds.. and BEST friend for that matter..

I let u in one secret Dj.. when the parents meetings came up.. I used to compare your NOSE to your moms.. yeah.. the look da same.. bt urs is more lyk Pinocchio’s nose.. cz u lie all the time.. hahahah !!! rember the French cricket after the exams..? u c guyz.. she n I alwys used to CHEAT on selecting the teams.. whn I become the team leader.. she comes with another girl n give two names.. from which I hv to choose.. so Dj n I had a pact that we alwys select the 2nd name that was mentioned.. so at the end.. she n I r in the same team.. yeah.. that is how we learned to cheat.. we were jst .. errr.. 13 yrs old.. back then..

As per the secret society.. wel.. it was the SLS rember.. ? the Six Little Stars.. ya.. ya.. some STARS we were back then.. isnt it? U knw people.. dj is pretty damn good at art work.. she used to draw me so many pics of guys.. girls.. animals.. u name it. She has painted them for me.. one habit she has was that when ever we go for a seminar at the main hall .. we sit together n she used to draw these lovely pics and put the date n give me.. I stil hv them.. after all these years.. I think.. I can open a museum with all her work..

Ok..that is da beginning.. so where were i.. hmmm.. yeah.. abt her names.. yeah.. how can I forget.. “SUN FM” yeap. .. we were so crazy over this particular radio station.. most probly of the Djs of cz.. I loved.. Casper and she loved.. err.. err.. whom did u lvd Dj? All of them ? yeah.. u r that predictable ne.. yep. .i think she lvoed them all … now y am I forgeting to mention the Wolf .. now Werewolf… rember him? So was it u or I called wolf babe ? u .. ? ok.. so it was Dj who was called Wolf Babe. No no .. she isnt hairy lyk a wolf but she sure can howl lyk a one.. yep.. u shld listen to her at Singing competitions.. screaming at the top of her lungs.. bt no sound comes up.. hey gal were u jst lipping ? I think so..

So sad to say .. that I cant remebr her bn in a drama.. ? were u Dj? She can act so wel.. mostly imitating that is.. I knw this after seen how she walked the walk of Capt. Jack Sparrow .. yeap. The one in da ‘Pirates of the Caribbean’ ….

Opps.. y da hell am I deviating from the topic… back to the names.. ok.. K becme Wolf babe.. and Kem.. and for a while she was Shaqule .. yea.. the Dj at Yes ! the Shaq factor.. bt thn I realized. .. ok .. y don’t I call her Dj .. u c.. there is no real reason for me to call her that .. bt now after seeing Pirates .. I think it makes sense cz she is Davi Jhones.. for sure.. . last time we watched it.. the 2nd part that is.. she cursed me.. “ I curse upon thee” she said.. Y ? u want to knw Y ? cz.. I m a girl who normally eats a lot.. wel mostly the sweet stuff.. n never gain weight.. don’t get me wrong I aint lyk the ones who r living in Ethiopia or someplace.. with only skins and bones.. bt I m happy with my figure.. so that time wen she was at mine.. she saw how much I eat n stay SLIM as this.. so she cursed.. me.. n MAN!! After that I started eating lyk a PIG! Geez.. bt lucky .. stayd da same..

Anyways.. that is my Djs MOUTH for you.. !! hik hik..

Dj was the reason I becm crazy.. she draw me nuts with her crazy little ways.. she is so.. I mean so very FUN to be with.. she hve these crazy idea.. God knows from where she gets them.. bt she does.. she is different.. oh yeah.. abt this different fcator.. Remember Dj.. those days.. all said that when two people hv ideas which doest match .. they tend to clash all the time? Bt we proved them otherwise.. cz… we told them that different makes us best frnds. Cz.. then its not boring.. abt talking abt the same thing over and over again..

For some weird reason.. she and I had this theory about “how a girl gets pregnant”.. geezzzzz…. U n I were SO STUPID back then werent we ? n how abt the running around the school every morning to postpone SOMETHING !! hahahahah!! Wt a loony bins we were….

Hey all reading this.. dj is pretty good at breaking the locks.. yeah.. we did once at school.. one day the after noon walks led us to a class room on the 3rd floor of a new building.. where the class room had a few chairs.. n a cupboard.. yeah..its obvious that NO ONE was using this a class room.. bt jst keeping the broken stuff there.. so she n I had this curiosity abt.. breaking the lock n to see wts inside the cupboard.. n she broke it.. n guz wt.. there were so many books .. english books.. story books.. work books.. etc., wt did we do with them ?? of cz we took them n divided them btwn us n brought them home.. SCHOOL property.. yeah.. it soon became HOME property.. So we stole.. wtz da big DEAL ? ha ?

She was my partner in crime at school.. but ONCE.. I wanted some Begonia leaves for something n I asked her to watch out for me.. til I pick some leaves from the school garden.. n man.. u nw.. she was so good at keeping n eye on things.. I got caught to the ARTA ! yeah.. our Art teacher.. she ran away.. n I got caught.. bt lucky.. I was asked not to do it again.. so I was FREED from it.. boy.. didn’t we had a laugh rembring it ..

Sabrina .. ring any bells DJ ? ok.. we R NOT lesbians.. bt there was this nanga at school.. she is so pretty.. and was new to da school.. DJ n I used to go behind her.. after school. N I wanted to be frnds with her.. COME ON PEOPLE!! It was jst frnship.. n I stil can remebr how DJ went to her n told that we wants to be frnds with her.. well… mostly.. I WANTED to b frnds with her.. (THNKX YARR for creating the most embarrassing situ in my life ) !! way to go DJ !! bt after that we 3 becm frnds..

I knw she has givn me the credit for MAKING her to read .. n collect songs… bt lvng Dj.. I though I learned that from you.. even my mom says that.. so I guz.. u n I hav had a mixed up with whom followed whom.. well on da other hand.. u mst have followed me. U knw.. me being the smart one and all..

Now all.. I wil tel her that y Dj is my best frnd.. well its is all due to Selfish reasons.. I guz.. she is the one whom understands me well.. if im angry or sad.. she understands.. I stil can remebr how I got Pissed off at our ‘Social” n how she used to cool me DOWN.. remebr the pics we took hugging the huge err.. wt do u call them ? shti..i cant remebr da word for it.. ne.. well Dj.. u knw wt I mean.. n for the once who don’t kwn wt I m trying to remebr is jst knw that it is a part of the building.. not any body part or anything.. ! (dirty minds) .. She n I hv this connection that
“where ever we go ..
wt ever we do..
I l be right here waiting for you.. “
Wat da hell am I writing..? wat I meant to write was.. that.. she n I hv a good connection may from our previous births.. that we cannot be parted.. by anything or anyone.. not even death.. so “Till death do us apart” DOES not apply to she n I .. its more lyk.. al though we were in two different class rooms.. whn im free im alwys at ur class room or during the morning assembly I m always in ur Que.. cannot change the habits.. ryt ?

U c.. Dj n I kinda hav the same destiny.. when it comes to LOVE of cz.. bt I doubt that she is a NUTTY gal lyk me.. (ARE YOU DJ ? ) !! the most loving thing I loved abt her “getting over” that Piece of S**t - (as to her words that is.. ) is that.. the mail we wrote to him.. I lve it.. so so so very creative.. n man.. u can write.. filth for sure.. hahaha !!

Hey Dj.. remebr how I drove you to H2O n came back ? u c people.. she needed to hv a break.. so I drove her to the hottest nyt club in town.. we came to entrance n turned back n came back home.. n partied all nyt at my place.. the spot lyt.. the pizzas.. the drinks.. the music.. the SINGING !! yeah.. she can RAP ! she really CAN RAP !! ( I was half a wake when she was rapping.. )

Bt for all .. who knws.. her.. Dj is not an ANGEL as u think.. isnt innocent as u think.. becaz.. she is more than that !! yeah.. she is a good frnd.. (if u r a frnd) n can be ur worse nytmare (if u make her angry) ..

Am I glad 2 hv her in my life ? U KIDDING ME ? I m trying to get rid of her .. for my sake. HAHAH !! nah..i m jst goofying around.. she isnt a person to let go.. bt to keep..

Oh Dj.. abt me bn single.. I thought it was ur line.. rembr the videos we made “Miss PAGAL ? “ or shld I say Ms. Neha Chawdry? ? it ws ur line which u ended as “THIS IS DJ Signing off.. n once again I AM SINGLE” how cn u turn that line on me ha ? u pagal ladique..

O did I mention that she lvs cars ? she wil probly be better than any of you guyz.. whn it comes to knowing abt cars.. im sure my bro. Suranga .. (Jj) wil agree with me.. (No?) well.. abt the hard rock bands . ther r some bands which I hv not even heard of bt she listen to.. she do hv a bit of a STRANGE taste ..

Since this is turning out to be a LONG blog.. I l stop for now. .n may be at a later date. I l write the rest..

Finally Dj.. u r MY best frnd.. n I m glad to hv u in my life gal.. n all u people out there.. if she isnt in urs.. MAKE her ur frnd.. u l never regret it.. (simply becz u l not live a minute u make frns with her.. she wil drive u mad .. n u l suicide urself.. HIK HIK )

Lv ya Budz !!

You’ll remember me

When the west wind moves up

on the fields of barley

You can tell the Sun

in his jealous sky

That we walked in the fields of gold….

I first listened to that song.. over the radio of cz.. n recently this came into my mind.. then I realized wt Memories can do to us.. .. now… what can I say abt memos ? don’t we all have those.. ? good bad n ugly memories.. do we really need to have them in our lives ? of cz we do.. im sure most of you would say that.. so will I .. bt come to think of it.. .. how would our lives be if we live without memories..

Do you knw.. that all though we hv happy memories in our lives.. we tend to remember the sad n bad memories always.. I bet if I ask you to name 10 situs that u rate as good memories you ll find yourself is a position of HARD TO REMEMBER.. bt if I ask.. wt is the saddest memory you hv in ur life.. im sure u can say wat it is with da dates .. place. n even the time. .

So why do we live with these memories? I think its what keeps us going.. when we remember all those good times.. we want add more to that.. n for the sad ones.. we want to KEEP out of those.. what I do with my sad memories.. is that.. I get rid of all the things.. which reminds me of how I came across that memory .. the letters.. cards.. photos.. u name.. it.. I tend to keep them away.. cz whn you see them only.. u go back to the past.. n start to feel sorry for urself..

Do I add more good memories into my life ? OF cz I do.. don’t you ? bt I tend to keep them.. where it is.. n whn I feel down.. I try to remember them.. bt sadly.. its hard to do when u r feeling down.. that’s y I share all my happy and sad memories with my best frnds.. lyk u guyz.. so that u ll remind me of how it has been.. and how it will be.. ( n make me feel MORE DOWN hahahaha!!)

I lv the memos I hv during my school time.. specially the A/ls .. man.. it was so damn fun.. ok.. im not talkng abt passing the exams or anything.. ..the ones I had with our BOIL team n Dj ofcz.. Boil team.. I l write abt that TEAM on a later date.. ;

So for the end of this .. I jst want say that ..

Many years have passed since those summer days

Among the fields of barley

See the children run as the sun goes down

Among the fields of gold…!!!

Y do i want Dawson ?

Ever since i started watching Dawson’s Creek ( I cant remember the year) I always wanted him.. u knw Dawson.. Y ? wel.. for so many reasons..
One thing is he is GOOD LOOKING ( obvs..) ! ok.. Paecy (my other fav..) n Jack ( the most attractive guy in DC ) too r good looing.. for Dawson.., he cares so much abt Joey .. n he is a good frnd.. wel.. at times.. he act stupid.. bt I think I lyk him a lot cz of the way he treats Joey… the best part I lyk in DC is that Joey climbs upto Dowson’s room in the middle of the nyt.. n talks for hrs.. or watch a movie.. n fall asleep in his room.. on da floor or on his bed.. they hv a frndshp lyk that.. now.. if I did that.. hmmmm.. wld act JST lyk that? Makes ME wonder..

Bt I guz u can never hv a frnd lyk that here in SL.. I mean if u spend da nyt in a boyz bed room.. people wil have A LOT talk abt da next day.. n probly they may get it ryt.. jst may be..
My personal opinion is that hving a guy as your best frnd is the best.. don’t get me wrong.. I hv a girl best frnd.. DJ ! she is totally a nut.. bt she is the best .. who knws well abt me… specially when we were schooling.. we knw each other from kinder garden .. bt lost a 5 yrs of it.. bt met again at Devi.. so its almost lyk 15 yrs now.. ok.. going back to hv a guy as a best frnd.. so as I was sayin.. I think guyz do understand u more than the girls.. or they pretend.. they understand.. hik hik.. but.. in my life I hv come across A FEW guys.. whom I say best frnds.. it’s a quite a few.. bt my first 3 bests are my bro.. my flying bro.. n someone greatest guy.. (whom I cant mention here .. yeah. Top secret.. ) hik hik.. I hv to say that talking to these guys r so easy.. n they totally understand.... they wil not feel jealous of anything.. unless you talk abt some hansom hunky i met at a party or in the bus or at my class.. or even at OFFICE !! u shld c how they react.. with all that PROTECTIVE ways..

As for Dawson.. I really do wish that I hv a frnd lyk him.. with all that freedom.. buuutttt.. we cant always have wat we want.. so I jst hv to be with the Looney bros.. n frnds.. as my best guy frnds..

ok Fyn.. Dawson n Joey become lovers n they screw up the friendship.. they had.. so don’t ever fall in lv with ur best frnds.. !!

I realized that my sis is the best sis I m gonna ever have and the ONLY one for that matter.. today when dad was dropping me n bro off for classes.. we talked abt her.. how she used to act whn I was little.. ok.. I was a CUTY !! when I was tiny.. (cant say that im BIG that much now though) hik hik.. nyways.. dad told us that my sis.. used to squeeze my cheeks, my tiny hands and legs.. may be to her I must have looked lyk a living doll.. so whn I was able to walk she has taken me everywhere that she is goin.. man.. she is pretty adventures girl.. she taught us how to climb trees.. ( well she once kicked me off a tree.. n I was lucky NOT to end up in hospital with a broken rib or something).. as far as I can rembr she was the BOY in our family.. the mischievous one inda family.. she had once hung from a nylon thread “Acting” Code RED !! n set some trees on fire.. I don’t knw wat she was thinking.. the FIRE Department?? Once one of my cousins has told that she is born as a “Printing Mistake” .. how true that is.. well WAS.. cz now.. she kinda changed to someone whom we don’t knw of.. not to the bad side.. bt she has become a GIRL !! u knw.. girly girly.. bt have to admit that I miss my sis.. a lot..

She is in US now.. Married of cz.. hope she knws wat she is doing .. anyways.. that is another story.. I jst thought of writing abt her cz she plays a big part in my life.. I can remember how she punched me on da face over the TV remote controller.. how she used to look after me when I was ill.. she is lyk a second mother to me.. although she have her own (EVIL) ways of teaching me n bro wt is wry n wrong.. bt I think her efforts were jst wasted cz bro n I have turned out to be .. SNEEKY BRATS !! hahaha!!!!

Talking abt guyz.. (our fav subject of cz) .. she had more cute guys in her classes.. than I used to have.. i don’t knw if my sis really liked anyone in her classes.. bt I m SURE she did.. (she isn’t a Lessi so its obvious she did liked them..) I don’t kwn if I shld write abt the GUYS whom we talked abt.. cz.. they r secrets .. ! only I knw.. ..so letz keep it that way.. shall we..

I can remember wat a pain I was to her when she was in gr8 11 .. I used to go to her class and listen to the elder SISTERS talks.. n I was such a sweet girl.. I come home n update my MOM on those stuff.. (man I must have been such a .. wel I don’t even have a word for me.. ) I really don’t LYK her friends cz all of them were PRETENDERS!! I hate them ALL !! when sis needed them.. they walked away.. so I don’t even lyk to call them as friends.. but there were a FEW who was good frnds.. ( I think..) but with time.. I grew up and so did she.. and learned the way of life..

My Akki is the one whom I share all my jokes with.. u c.. even if I tel her abt something nutty I did.... she thinks im joking. .. wt ever I tel her.. she says.. “yeah ryt!!” so sis.. u cant blame me.. cz I have told u many thngs.. which u obviously have taken them as jokes.. (OK.. now I knw .. if u r reading this SIS.. u r confused.. and trying to find out if im lyn or not even now.. don’t you ??) lol.. ok ok.. I m JOKING ! or am I ? ? oh I do tel u abt my dreams.. and sis.. they r NOT jokes.. they r dreams..

Now that she is SO FAR away from me.. I have NO one to share my nyt time talks with .. remebr how u n I had those crazy laughs and talks at nyt.. the little chit chats.. now I m NEVER going to have them sis.. its not a easy thing to let go cz u were there for 25 years in my life.. do u knw that u have missed almost 1 ½ yrs in my life? There were times I really needed you.. where I wanted to cry all nyt hoping you wil hold me n say “SIS everything is going to be all right” bt life has it amzing way of letting us find our own way out of our messes.. dnt they ? wel.. I knw.. that I KNW too much of somethings.. where u r jst play numb at.. bt u l learn them .. with time. Sis..

I had many plans with my sis.. I wanted to be her BRIDES MAID which never happened cz.. well letz say that it was DUE to some Unavoidable circumstances.. I feel that im a part of wat happened .. in a way I am responsible for wat happened.. and I wil never forgive myself for that.. all the pain everyone went thro becz of me.. may be I l get a chance to pay back them..

But with all this changes in life.. she has become .. MORE stubborn bt she seems to have learn wat matters in life .. who r the ones that who really cares and whom she should care..

I LOVE YOU MY SIS!!

Novermber RAIN !!!

Do u knw wat it feels lyk loving someone who is in a rush to throw you away !!! ( Enrique)

The November rain..

Wel wel.. wt can I say abt November.. it’s the month where I learn about how to LET GO !! or mostly itz the time.. where love comes into my life and love goes away from me.. I used to love , , love.. bt now.. I don’t feel anything for love.. its good to be in the songs.. or the fairytales which ends in “ happily lived ever after” but sadly.. its not for us.. once in a life time.. we DO meet that ONE person whom we start to love from the bottom of your heart and the next thing you knw is that person is in someone else’s arms.. or married to someone else .. or have left this world without even saying good bye.. which category my love life goes into.. ? wel.. I had my fair share in heartaches and heartbreaks.. well heart aches cz it get breaks and broken hearts do not have any spare parts.. bt my theory is that if the heart get broken. FIX it.. !! belive me there r so many ways to do that..

How I let go of the love of my life ? ? wel.. I stil have not met him.. yet.. cz I had .. and if have let go of him.. I m pretty sure I wont be writing this blog .. I l be either dead or sitting in a mental hospital chewing my nails or something.. ! ( no no .. im not in a hospital right now .. ) bt sometimes.. u have to learn to let go in life you knw.. I had a guy who cheated on me.. which I took very seriously .. cz I did love him a LOT!! Whn I found it out.. I was in tears.. cldnt even think of wat to do.. called a friend.. bt he was so shocked that he cldnt even talk to me properly. Called to a another frnd.. and she started to cry with me.. so for cryng out loud people im the one with the problem so PLZ do TELL me something to make my self a little comfortable.. then I called a person whom I normally don’t call up with my problems.. and I’m glad I did.. cz after talking to him.. I was NOT crying.. !! and within 48 hrs I was able to let go of that guy who cheated me.. so I guz the one whom I cant say who he is.. I can say one thing that he is the Greatest!

Well as for the one who cheated.. he had his return of “Cry me a river” I guz.. he Disserves it.. and belv me that guy still suffering becz of his new girl.. now how do I knw this? OH ! I do. I always do .. !

Lesson I learned is that.. having a lover is a BURDEN !! yeah.. I learnt that from my bro.. I totally agree with him now.. cz i have realized that although u love someone with all your heart.. they jst don’t care.. n when u r out from their lives. . then only they knw what they had.. (Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind )

“………..No need to worry about everything I've doneLived every second like it was my last one…………”

Brothers !!! (( U cannot live without.. ))

The “Brotherhood” of my life.. there r 2 n belv me Im glad they are not in da same house..

First of all I shld write abt my BROTHER (Banker- CBC) whom I met first in my life..… Chin (Chinthaka).. yeah he is the best bro a sis can ever have.. ( wel most of the sisters DO feel that way) bt I guz my bro is the best of all .. although his name is chinthaka.. I call him by so MANY names.. first one was “Malle” as usual. Then “Sunny” which of cz came cz his fav cricketer is Sanath J! after that I called him “Manya” .. Manya is of cz a witch that came in on of the fairytales… n after that .. I called him “Shaggy” stil call him by that name.. wt I love abt my bro is that he keeps ALL your secrets.. (he is a one person who can destroy me with all my secrets hik hik.) and he is ALWYS there for you .. I mean not only for me.. for ANYGIRL for that matter (hik hik.. ) yeah.. all my frnds who knws him KNWS that.. bt my bro is my partner in crime.. I rembr all the crazy shopping stuff.. the crazy bus talks.. checking the girls together to see if they match with him.. its jst crazy life for me n my bro..

I can remember whn he was little.. (now of cz he is 24 and 6ft + tall.. yep .. he is tall n handsome too ) those days.. he was such a PAIN ! I mean.. he used to hit everybody.. we called him “MarumuZ” bt now.. he is totally different.. pretty grown up I guz.. having a 6ft bro as makes me proud.. cz i think a guy is more handsome n smart if he is tall.. don’t get me wrong guyz.. u all r grt looking gys.. bt u get the eye of the girls esily if u r that tall.. I knw that cz.. my frnds DO hav an eye for my bro.. cant say that I enjy it much.. bt hey.. I wld do the same if any of my frnds DO have a bro lyk that.. so I m cool with the Looks ! when it comes to probs in my life.. well Shaggy is the one I turn to .. first.. I talk with him.. n try to tel wt I think of it.. n I think most of the time I make him angry cz.. whn I do have a prob .. I m kinda cranky.. bt he knws that .. n totally understands it.. don’t feel “J” people.. nobody is that LUCKY to have a bro lyk him.. !

Moving on to the next bro in my life.. well.. he came out from NO where and stil there and never going ANYWHERE !! yeah.. its you .. my Bothering Brother.. the pilot man Suranga.. now if u want to talk abt a guy who is CRAZY for real.. he is the ONE!! Man he is so irritating at times.. n belive me he looks out for me lyk my DAD !! His fav saying is that .. “Sis , don’t make me cm there n sit on you” .. u guyz lost there ???? OKAY!! I l explain.. the onez who have seen me kwns how BIG I am.. 5ft 5.. slim.. fair girl.. errr.. Pretty TOO!! So this bro , Suranga is lyk .. ok I think he is abt 5ft 9.. n weigh nearly half an elephant ! so when ever I say something wrong or if I say I do something WRONG he says that.. so I l be crushed to the ground.. bt for the ones who dznt knw abt him.. he can be your best frnd.. n he is a person whom u can trust and he too wil be there for you.. wel.. for him also the same story.. for any girl he wil be there.. (As long as his GF dsnt knw abt it.. hik hik..) I l alwys remember him as the guy who called his gf “ my woman” ! I think I was so blessed to have him in my life.. cz.. when I m down.. he is always there for me.. lyk my bro chin.. all my probs at home.. ofz.. even the probs I had in my love life (now of cz I m lving happly without any probs .. thank all you Gods for that) .. u c .. there r things you only lyk to tell one specific person only.. u don’t go on telling everyone abt your probs.. you only talk to the ones whom u trust and feel that they can help you out with ur prob.. so the Big Bang Bear (Pooh) the pilot is one of the people whom I can open myself with…!

Similarities with these two bros… Number one is they can be irritating at times.. 2nd one is that they can be irritating and the 3rd one also the same..

But have to say that u can never have TOO much of them.. ! Glad n Lucky to have them in my crazy little world !!!! But for me they are always will be the little ones.. who look after me ofcz !!!!!!!

There is always da "!st Time" for EVERTHING !

Well.. i always want to do things "MY WAY" bt hv to admit that this "BLOG" thing.. is not my way.. of doing things.. bt whn my best frnd intro me to this.. i was lyk.. " WOW" this is where i can really say things.. which i really want and let others read it..

Dont u always want to do that? no ? ok.. me neither.. bt lets c.. i lyk writn.. n i cant say im pretty good at it.. bt hey.. a girl can try cant she ?

So talking abt the 1st time... hm.. there is alwyz first time for everything.. isnt it ? the first step .. (of cz we do NOT remebr it) bt if u go back n try to rember the first crush u ever had on a guy.. hmmmmmmmmm.. now that is a thought isnt it.. well.. my first crush was " Sinbad the sailer" yeah i knw.. it was a TV series.. n i was so damn attracted to him.. n the next day i was down with fever.. hik hik.. !! bt my REAL 1st crush is CK ! yeah.. (a Royalist! me bn a DIE hard Supporter of STC the St. Thomas Colleage Mt. Lavinia.. (stil Lv it) i had my ever 1st crush as a ROYALIST) i met him in 1997 Novermber 14th !! GOOD memory ! Come 2 think of it.. November been a good and a bad month for me whn it comes to my love life.. may be on a later date i l write abt it..

It was jst a childish crush.. thereafter i cant even remeber the guys we used to joke abt whn schooling.. wat were our fav. after school classes.. cz we get to see the ones we LYK ! it was fun.. do damn fun.. bt its jst a part of life isnt it ? we all go tro that period ! i dont think there wil be any girl on earth who has not gone tro that period .. may be there is.. bt i dont knw any1 so.. i l stick to my theory..

First time we had a crush.. first time we had a lovers kiss.. their touch.. those r grt memories.. which u can never let go.. i remeber my first kiss. ! wow.. i was lifted out to heaven.. (wel.. i m so down to earth bt it gives a feeling which u can never imagine) .. since i m NOT writing any dirty things.. i l jst stop writing abt that subject ! ( may be.. i l do it in a later date! jst MAY be...)

Wat i say to myself is..u can make a mistake cz there is always "da first time.." bt make sure u dont repeate a MISTAKE again.. bt hv to admit there are some sweet mistakes i have made in my life.. so i guz i wil repeat them oneday .... again.. !! may be life is a mistake where we all r trying to find the answers to all our probs.. isnt it?

Ok.. this turning out to be a boring blog.. so i l jst windup for now..n watch sm movies.. so im guzn.. i l log later n write off the things i promised to write..

Stay Happy Always ! n KS !!! (KEEP SMILING) !